Hello everyone, I hope everything is going good for ya’ll! For me, I’m hanging in there. In this post I’m going to share with you what I remember the days after surgery. There are a lot of firsts that happened this time around!
After the surgery (small bowel resection and scar tissue removal) I woke up with a NG (Nasogastric) tube coming out my nose. I’ve never had one of these before but I have certainly heard about it from a support group that I’ve attended. I thought this was funny looking because it was taped to my nose so I had to snap a few pictures with it! Well, I’ll tell you something, it definitely wasn’t funny coming out! The tube extended from my nose to the inside of my stomach and it felt like it covered the whole inside of my throat and nasal cavity when it came out!
From here on out, I have to rely on partial hearsay due to the condition I was soon to be in. So, somewhere down the line, I developed pneumonia in both lungs. I had also developed a high fever so they thought I may have the Corona virus! I was in the ICU when all of the sudden the doctors and nurses fully geared up for the Corona virus and tested me. I tested negative. As the days went by, I was placed in and out of the ICU several times. The surgeon gave my husband the choice of putting me on the ventilator before it became an emergency or wait until it became an emergency. Of course, my husband chose to put me on it then.
While I was on the ventilator, they had me totally sedated and tied down. Unfortunately, I tried to pull the ventilator out so they had to put big mittens on me and tie them down to the bed. I couldn’t even scratch my nose when needed! There were a couple of times I actually vomited in the ventilator also. Of course, no one would be around when I vomited, so I would have to lie there until someone came in to check on me and clean me up.
You know, when I was under sedation, I had some very weird, dark and twisted thoughts that I could have sworn I heard and were true but were not. Just like I was living it. Some of these were:
- My aunt, grandma and dad were literally throwing money at the surgeon so that he would perform surgery on me.
- Mark (my husband) decided to cremate me alive.
- Mark and I decided to go to a voodoo doctor to heal me, however, it didn’t work.
- Mark and my best friend, Luann dropped me off at a hospital in Louisville, KY for surgery but they didn’t stay.
- While I was in the hospital, the doctors and nurses mistreated me so I called Bella to get me out and her and a friend busted me out of the hospital.
- Mark put the house up for sale.
I don’t know where in the world those dreams and thoughts came from but I did not like being sedated at all. It was terrible. There was one instance where I knew I was in my right mind..there was a nurse, (or could it have been an angel?) who would come in my room and wipe my face with a warm, wet cloth and pray over me. It was so calming.
To my knowledge, this is what I had endured after my surgery. I believe the surgery itself was a piece of cake compared to what I had experienced afterwards. Remember to take one day at a time and keep moving forward. We are all in this crazy world together!
Chow for now!